Goodbye Henry

Yesterday you told me you are sorry. But do you know what you have done? Do you know how shattered I was? I'm sorry but if I give you one last chance, the next time it happens, I wouldn't be walking out from the door, my heart would stop thumping.

Henry, we are not meant to be together. We were just a fling. Though I have never actually thought of that, you kept reminding yourself. And me. I was a fling to get over Emeline. She is the one you want. The one that you would give up everything to be with.

Yesterday, I lost all hope in you. I lost all faith I have ever gave you. Henry you are wrong, and you are wrong for treating me like this. What you told Emeline, Joyce or Justy are the truth from your heart. What you really think of me. That I am no one important for you. Don't waste my time, or yours. I don't think you deserve me, Henry. I gave you all and you trampled on me. What would you do, if you are in my situation? Would you be able to forgive me? You might think it is easy, just accept the apology. Done. But look Henry, it was hurtful the 1st time, I gave myself reasons to forgive you. It was hurtful the 2nd time, again I gave reasons to trust you again. The 3rd, the 4th, was the same. You told me it's NEVER going to happen again. You disappoint me Henry. You crushed me. I can't find another reason to forgive you. I know deep inside me. There is no point being together, being happy, when my heart is so deeply wounded. I will be the one suffering, to make you happy. Think about it. For you happiness, you are willing to sacrifice me again. Do you even feel bad about it?

Henry, I love you. But do you? Even if you tell me you do, I doubt. How can I be compared with someone you loved so dearly for 4 years. My departure wouldn't sadden you as much as hers, no? You love her, even now. That's so unfair. Why are you with me when you still have feelings for me. STOP treating me like this.

I don't care why you kiss me before you go to class, or you skipped class because you want to spend more time with me. Because all you have done is way more hurtful to compensate. Thank you for last night, being with me as a happy couple. I cried, because I knew that was going to be the last.

Goodbye Henry.